Last night when we talked you sounded more down than I’ve heard you in a long time. I could feel your sadness and your struggle to stay hopeful.
The ‘protective mother’ part of me wants to save you from this struggle. I want to say the right words, do just the right thing, or give you just the right book to help things become clearer to you. Part of me wants to gather everything I’ve ever learned, take charge, and make everything better.
All I want, all I’ve ever wanted is for you to be safe, happy and free.
I’ve told you before that when you came into my life it was my very first experience of loving someone unconditionally. Now I can look back on it and tell you how that changed my life completely, why it’s so important.
Because what you brought with you, you courageous, amazing little woman, was the undeniable, powerful, truth - that you were Love in a tiny body - pure, innocent, trusting, unapologetic and shining. And I joined you in that love. I trusted it.
I could see and feel God in you. It was so pure, so obvious. And that experience, that knowledge, became my compass and my barometer for measuring everything else that came my way. Following that Love has led me home to the Truth.
It might not have seemed that way to you. The life I was living when you were born, and the beliefs I held about myself, were so far from love. My journey has been a long one, and I’ve had to confront many deeply held, incorrect beliefs. You’ve had the dubious honor of being part of my learning. I know it wasn’t easy for you.
I see you now on your journey. I see you - a determined, open-hearted, creative young woman with a dream of happiness for her life.
I see the perfect, pure being that you were when you first arrived for this adventure. You are still that being. You are God’s own child, pure Love, pure innocence. If I could give you anything, it would be the memory of this truth about yourself.
It is what is most true. It is what I see when I see you through the eyes of my heart. It is what I know.
Even though the circumstances that surround you may seem overwhelming, may convince you otherwise, ignore them. You are not a victim. You are a powerful, free creator. You are included fully in God’s Love, and any belief, person, organization or memory that even hints otherwise is a lie.
More than that, the Truth about you doesn’t live in any outward condition or circumstance. It lives deep within you. Pure beauty and Love live quietly, in the shelter of your heart. This pure beauty will burn away the lies.
Spend time there. Remember with me.
This is where I hold you.